Looking back over some of my life choices has been one of my goals this summer. Analyzing the decisions I have made, what brought me to those decisions and what consequences were paid has been quite a challenge. I don't want to repeat my mistakes. I want to continue with the good, file away the not-so-brilliant ideas and actions and just proceed gently through the remaining time I have left.

I remember lots of good things. Maybe I have made them better over time and they weren't really so good---just not as detrimental as the bad stuff. Or maybe they really were wonderful learning experiences. Sorting through them has been an eye-opener.

I recall more bad junk than what I think I deserve. Wonder why certain things happened, guessed at their true meaning, gave up on trying to figure out just why in the world I was lead down that path. Most of it I may never know. Dealing with the "whys" is very therapeutic. Now only if the answers would come……..

I have a hope deep within that I am on the right path, traveling this life journey in the direction I need to be going. I hope I am making a difference, I hope I am worthy of a better afterlife. I hope that even if I do not understand most of what happens to me, that a power beyond my comprehension is guiding me. It is so very hard to let go and let the Divine Spirit do the navigating.

		We might not be missing the boat but instead
		are actually steering it into uncharted waters.
					--Guillermo Echanique

When the going gets rough and the waters are choppy I need to trust in memory and hope----the most powerful forces of life.