I am at a standstill. I feel heavy, weighted down. I can't move forward. I certainly can't go back. Moving sideways would only waste energy and I have precious little of that to spare. So what to do?

I seem to be caught in a circle. I make a little leeway and think I am moving again but I seem to always end up back where I started. I make the same mistakes, they just take different forms. I think I alter the map but the scenery is always remotely familiar. I want to go in a different direction, I plan on going in a different direction and I even pack the necessary equipment I need to take me in a different direction. I still end up running into myself: same old issues, same old baggage, same old results.

I used to have a sailboat. Lots of work, lots of fun. Main ingredient necessary: wind. Maybe that's the problem. I am allowing myself to be blown about because I am refusing to own my own truth, stand up for what I believe in, clean house, make changes and trust that the Divine Spirit will spin me into a whirlwind if necessary to get my attention.

		"I find the great thing in this world is not so much where
		we stand, as in what direction we are moving.  We must
		sail sometimes with the wind and sometimes against it-
		but we must sail, and not drift nor lie at anchor.
						--Oliver Wendell Holmes

Prayer this week: Divine Spirit, give me the necessary will-power to pull up the anchor and allow you to be the compass that allows me to tack across the sea of my troubles and head to the comfort of your shores.